July 19, 2013 § 25 Comments
First of all, I have no words for the gratitude I feel for each of you for sharing my excitement with me. Bottom of my heart kind of thing. I’m in awe.
I’ll cut the crap this time. No fancy lead ins. Build ups. Truthfully, I’m just too tired for that.
Beta this morning was 247. That’s a doubling time of 35 hours. So far, this little cell ball is still with is.
To tell you guys the truth, I’ve been a disaster. My anxiety has been through the roof. I’m horribly irritable, which no one actually gets to see except my sweet husband, thank god. Tonight, hours after hearing this great news about the beta, I’m back at it. I just straight sobbed into Artsy Engineer’s shoulder for 20 minutes. This is exactly where I have wanted to be for the last 18 months. But it feels so vulnerable. Now I actually have something to lose.