November 2011 – Tossed the rest of the birth control pills. Hopeful! Afraid to have unprotected sex because it feels weird. Like I’m being irresponsible. Do it anyway. Preconception appointment with my OB/GYN. Teased for scheduling this, as I am a healthy, young enough woman. Instructed to “have fun making a baby!”
December 2011 – No period.
January 2012 – Still no period.
February 2012 – First period.
March 2012 – No period. Into the doctor, who tells me it’s normal and to call if I haven’t had another period in 3-4 months.
April 2012 – Period. Begin to chart.
May 2012 – No period. Starting to see a pattern here. Don’t want to wait 3-4 months. Call aforementioned doctor, who refers me to a reproductive endocrinologist.
June 2012 – Begin to use basal body temperature while charting. Cycles are looong (and obviously irregular), but it looks like I’m ovulating. Attend first reproductive endocrinologist appointment. Set up a plan for blood tests, transvaginal ultrasound, and hsg.
July 2012 – Get blood tests, transvaginal ultrasound, and hsg. Everything looks golden, except the part about my irregular/long cycles. No good reason for this is provided.
August 2012 – Planning appointment with reproductive endocrinologist. She suggests Femara. We decide to hold off another couple of months. I don’t love meds. My super sensitive body tends to react with side effects, and I’m scared.
September 2012 – Uneventful in the fertility-related realm. Cycles seem to be normalizing some. They’re still long, lasting about 36 days, on average.
October 2012 – I know I’m pregnant three days after I ovulate. (I know, I know. They say it’s impossible. But I knew.) Actual BFP 10 days after I ovulate. I start bleeding at 5 weeks. On my birthday. The last birthday of my 20s. The miscarriage progresses naturally, and I’m back to where I started.
November 2012 – Reproductive endocrinologist advises us to “set a limit” on how much more natural trying we are going to do. We don’t. We try on this cycle, the first cycle after miscarriage, despite doctors advising us to wait. Can’t help ourselves. I’m devastated from the loss. And terribly impatient. BFN.
December 2012 – Holidays and travel provide a nice distraction. BFN.
January 2013 – I’m certain this is going to be The One. Aaand BFN BFN BFN.
February 2013 – Give in. Start letrozole. Follicular ultrasound reveals one 21.5 mm, one 13.5 mm, and one 13 mm follicle. HCG trigger shot the night of the u/s. Chemical pregnancy.
March 2013 – letrozole round 2 with timed intercourse. Vanilla cycle – nothing special. Sans monitoring and trigger. BFN
April 2013 – letrozole+TI #3. BFN
May 2013 – letrozole+trigger+IUI #1. BFN
June 2013 – letrozole+trigger+IUI #2. 3 mature follicles. BFN
July 2013 – letrozole+trigger+IUI #3. 2 mature follicles. Last shot before IVF scheduled for August/September. And are you freaking kidding me? BFP!
July 17, 2013 – 12 dpo; hCG 96.9, progesterone >80
July 19, 2013 – 14 dpo: hCG 247, progesterone >80
July 21, 2013 -16 dpo: hCG 569, progesterone >80
August 6, 2013 – First ultrasound reveals effing TWINS. And we hear two heart beats. It’s incredible. Baby A: 7 mm, 122 bpm and Baby B: 7 mm, 124 bpm
August 20, 2013 – Second ultrasound reveals two healthy babies! Baby A: 20 mm, 177 bmm and Baby B: 19.5mm, 180 bpm. And they were both wiggling their little heads and paddles around on screen!